146.

total weight loss. 58 pounds!

146 pounds!

Everyday Counts.

There is something I've been thinking about for some time now. I haven't really figured out how to say it.. but I am going to try.

I read a lot of things about how people "yo-yo diet".. or they "fad diet". We try every diet.. every pill.. every promise out there. And then we get depressed when it doesn't work.. or it does for a while.. then we quit. We hope someone will tell us the secret. Someone will slip us a magic bean and we will wake up thin. The problem is.. that doesn't solve the problem. The problem is us. When we start our "attempt" to lose weight.. and then eat candy and cake 3 times a day. We are the problem.

I'm sorry to be harsh. But its the truth.

CHANGE TAKE WORK!

The biggest thing in weight loss is that everything counts! When we eat candy, it counts.. when we eat salad.. it counts.. when we drink soda or juice it counts!

We don't slip of "the wagon".. we jump off! When we eat a bunch of junk.

I understand addiction. I have a food addiction. I am happy to admit that I LOVE to eat. My first thought are to eat. I'm not perfect. Today I drank a soda. It was diet coke caffiene free.. I never drink soda. I know its not good. But today I had one.

But that doesn't mean I have to start over tomorrow.

I just keep living. Changing your life can not be a trial. You are eating to live, or living to eat. Think about it.

Its about breaking the cycle!

Everyday is going to be a struggle. As time passes, I eat less bad things and more good things. Eventually.. we will eat less of everything, and only what keeps us fueled and healthy.

Our lives are not a tv show. We have to choose, and commit.

No matter what.. don't start over. No matter what.. don't give up.

In the world of health and weight loss.. everyday counts!

25 days.

This will be me in 25 days. Under an arch.. dressed in white.. with my groom. :)

The big girls.

I knew these girls in the 4th grade. They were taller than most girls our age. They weighed a lot more than girls our age. And me.. being the shortest person in our class.. well.. they seemed like giants. I nicknamed them.. "The big girls".

I never called them by their nickname. But in my head I thought.. oh.. there they are.. "the big girls". The funny thing was.. it wasn't a bad thing in my mind. They just happened to be bigger than me. So, that is how I could remember who they were.

All these years later, I could pick them out of my old year book. Sarah & Molly. They were nice girls.

I wonder today what they are like. I moved away after the 4th grade and never saw them again.

Its funny how we see people.

Hot dogs

Tonight I grilled 230 hot dogs at work.

I need not eat a single one. * I could have had like 10 if I wanted*

And I was seriously hungry.

I ate special K with soy milk just now.

Now thats commitment!

56 pounds down!

Going forward.

Sometimes I just sit and look at my diet.com profile. I read the numbers over and over..

My starting weight- 204

My current weight- 148

My goal weight- 130

weight loss since joining- 56 pounds

I am honestly still in shock at what I've done. Both to become 204 pounds to begin with.. and then to loose 56 pounds. I saw the film "Super Size Me" for the first time the other day. Do you know that entreme sudden weight gain can cause Liver problems and eventually liver failure? Do you know that you actually cause yourself to be sick by being overweight?

I felt sick all the time when I was 204 pounds. I had headaches.. a hard time breathing.. not to mention being depressed and insecure. I would have never have thought to tell people oh.. I'm "Sick".. Is being overweight the same as having a sickness? I don't smoke or drink. I think of those things as harmful to my body. Two things that could eventually cause diseases and death. But being overweight?

Its pretty normal to see a bunch of obese people around town. In fact.. its rare to find healthy looking people in the local town near me. Health is not necessarily our utmost concern. We wait till we are diabetic or are stuck in a wheel chair. Then we are like.. oh when did this happen? Woops.

The crazy thing is.. every meal counts. Your body has to process it all. Not to say I have the perfect diet. I'm just saying.. my body has to digest these things. I choose how I fuel my body. Because what is food? Its just fuel... right? Some times it seems its become more of a hobby that a need.

Today I woke up wanting to exercise. In fact I've been kinda grouchy lately. It could be the wedding plans, maybe I'm turning bridezilla, or the fact that my fiance and I just drove 3000 miles across the US this past week.. It could be lots of things.. But I decided this morning that exercise would help me to feel better. So.. I got my fiance, who is not overweight at all.. to do "Biggest Loser" bootcamp. We both almost puked after we were done. I mentioned in a recent blog that I was going to do my own "work out" thing. And so I did. And I will continue to do so. Even if my family is doing one handed push ups from their crazy work out video. I will stay true to myself... and my goals. Because I know what works for me.

And sometimes we need to do what is best for us.

Remember... food is fuel.

Have a great day!

All the others

When I started losing weight there was no one doing it with me. It was my own thing. On my own time. As the year has passed, my entire family is now into working out and eating healthy. The only problem is.. everyone has their own goals. I am a morning work out kinda person. I like to get it over with. Everyone else is night time work out people. Right now 3 family members are doing P90X in the living room.

I might have worked out this past year.. but lets be honest. I am still overweight. Is that an excuse?! well.. no. I still exercise. I'm just not a night time/ protein shake kinda gal. Nothing wrong with that...

It just hard to do your own thing in a pool of people with their own ideas.

Its not bad. It will just take some getting use to.

Perhaps sticking to exercising all on my own. Works best for me.