I have an eating obsession.

Yesterday was my day off.

I felt like making things all day long.

I made my husband chocolate dipped strawberries..

then I baked some whole wheat soft pretzels.

all I wanted to do was to eat them all. I wasn't hungry..

But the need.. the thought.. the haunting desire was there..

Eat .. Eat..

Over a year ago when I starting this journey I refused my body all things bad.

I cut my calories and took away all foods that were a temptation.

I put myself into a "food rehab"

slowly I've been able to control myself. I can eat just a little.

But lately I want more.

Perhaps its my new house.. with my husband.. a new situation that needs getting use to..

It could be my Long hours at work with no time to get a good workout.

Whatever it is.. I hate the feelings of my eating obsession.

The feeling that I am not in control.

Its time for a lifestyle check..

Its time for rehab.

I haven't gained weight.. but I can see and feel the warning signs of the obsession.

I know an eating disaster could be around the corner. '

I am the one in control of my body.

And I will keep going.

Because I am .. skinny.

139 pounds.

I weigh 139.

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Summer Time

You'd think weight loss in the summer would be simple. With all the trips.. the walking.. the summer heat.. the swimming.. the adventures..

But what if you are stuck at work?

Perhaps a job with no airconditioning... cooking over a hot stove 3 times a day.. for 100's of children.. ? hmm.. maybe thats just me..

maybe your in an office.. typing and sitting.. waiting for 5 o'clock to come and set you free..

then perhaps summer is not an adventure .. but a very warm continuation of what you do the rest of the year.. and in that case.. weightloss is probably harder than ever! With all those summer bbq's.. with the chips.. and cakes.. burgers.. smores.. a health food nightmare..

Oh yes.. I know the feeling.. your hungry.. but there are only hot dogs and chips.. or some watermelon and you had 5 slices already.. :(

What do you do?

Sadly the only answer I have is.. bring a snack.. eat before you came.. wait till you get home.. eat more melon! Perhaps bring a whole wheat bun.. turkey burgers.. turkey dogs..

Resisting that yummy jello cake with all those fresh berries and cool whip.. do you know the one?

Resist with me my friend!

Summer is my most difficult time of year for weightloss. I retain water the entire months.. and can never get an accurate weigh in.. I'm busy.. I have no time to exercise.. or to plan my meals. I am constantly fighting the summer snacks.

So I'm here for a reality check. At 139 pounds.. I must keep going! My goal is 9 pounds away. I've come so far..

This is truly the most difficult time I've had resisting food and trying not to crave things..

So join me in the weeks to come. Lets keep eating healthy and working out. Even if we don't want to..

143 pounds.

I weigh 143. :)

married.

I have been married for 11 days now. I love being married & I love my husband. Here are some photos from our beautiful day!

146.

total weight loss. 58 pounds!

146 pounds!

Everyday Counts.

There is something I've been thinking about for some time now. I haven't really figured out how to say it.. but I am going to try.

I read a lot of things about how people "yo-yo diet".. or they "fad diet". We try every diet.. every pill.. every promise out there. And then we get depressed when it doesn't work.. or it does for a while.. then we quit. We hope someone will tell us the secret. Someone will slip us a magic bean and we will wake up thin. The problem is.. that doesn't solve the problem. The problem is us. When we start our "attempt" to lose weight.. and then eat candy and cake 3 times a day. We are the problem.

I'm sorry to be harsh. But its the truth.

CHANGE TAKE WORK!

The biggest thing in weight loss is that everything counts! When we eat candy, it counts.. when we eat salad.. it counts.. when we drink soda or juice it counts!

We don't slip of "the wagon".. we jump off! When we eat a bunch of junk.

I understand addiction. I have a food addiction. I am happy to admit that I LOVE to eat. My first thought are to eat. I'm not perfect. Today I drank a soda. It was diet coke caffiene free.. I never drink soda. I know its not good. But today I had one.

But that doesn't mean I have to start over tomorrow.

I just keep living. Changing your life can not be a trial. You are eating to live, or living to eat. Think about it.

Its about breaking the cycle!

Everyday is going to be a struggle. As time passes, I eat less bad things and more good things. Eventually.. we will eat less of everything, and only what keeps us fueled and healthy.

Our lives are not a tv show. We have to choose, and commit.

No matter what.. don't start over. No matter what.. don't give up.

In the world of health and weight loss.. everyday counts!