My identity.

I spent much of my childhood being overweight. After so many years of being that way, that is simply how I see myself. I do have self control now a days. I can pass up on any tasty foods. Even my old favorites. I use not be able to stop myself from eating birthday cake at parties, or pizza with the girls. I didn't really know what it was like to want to eat something. I just always did. I ate tons of things, and it wasn't because I liked them. I couldn't help but eat them.

Anyways. After losing lots of weight, and keeping it off. I have realized that I still think of myself the old way. I have new coping skills, and eating skills. However, that has not changed how I view me. The way I look today has become the new "fat" me. I still see myself as being to chubby. However I have the hardest time not anticipating a giant girl looking back at me. And when I look in the mirror. She's not there anymore.

And here is the hard part. In order to drop these last pounds and completely surrender to the process I know will work. I have to let go of the old me completely. I won't be the fat girl, I wont have trouble playing sports, I wont get tired walking around... then.. who am I?

I have spent much of this process discovering so much about myself. Things I really enjoy and never knew.. activities I love to do, but never could. I enjoy this new me.. all while saying goodbye to who I once was. I didn't hate my old self. I just felt bad for it. I felt sad within that body. I appreciate those years of appreciating life. But I will never go back. And I have finally made it to the place of surrender. Of letting go of her. My old fat friend. She's held me back. And now.. I am ready.

New year Revolution..

This year I have big plans to shake up my life.

This is going to be a great year, I just know it.

I want to start a weight loss revolution!

And that, begins, with YOU!

For whatever reason, you are reading this.

My sad little blog that only has 4 followers.

Only ever had one comment, and yet. Has had almost 500 views.

I have some things I'd really like to change this year.


Number one. Is to weight 120 pounds by June 1st

I guess that's it. All the things I want to do and be come with losing those pounds.

Like eating healthy, and exercising. Can't do the first without doing those "healthy" things..

Here is your chance to join me. 6 months from now, who will you be? What will your life be like?

Its time to join the revolution. Its your time.

What's in this drink?

Today I had plans to get some Coffee with my husband. We got Starbucks gift cards for christmas. I have a deep love for chai tea lattes, especially from this one particular starbucks. Its delish! However it also has wayyy too many calories. On my last visit I switched to fat free milk in it. Cut out a little calories...but the sugar.. oh the sugar!! I knew it was loaded. So I went to starbucks.com and looked up low cal options. I am not so much a coffee drinker. So I was looking for a tea option. And happily I found a brewed tea with zero calories! YES! And I added some fake sugar. I got a venti for 2.45. Cheap and calorie free! The I picked up 2 boxes of tea bags from the store on the way home. I drink herbal tea, most times with no milk and a little bit of sweetener and sometimes a little honey. Roobios Red tea is my new favorite. Its very good.


So.. the question is.. what's in this drink?

I saw tons of people getting their warm holiday drinks as we sat and drank ours. There can't be that much sugar and calories in coffee.. right?

Did you know an eggnog latte has 470 calories in a grande? 48 grams of sugar! and 21 grams of fat! woh now! that's almost half my day's calories!

Did you know you can cut the calories by getting (most) lattes made "skinny" sugar free with nonfat milk. With 130 calories in stead.. and no fat! Try it out.. Your hips won't regret it! Or try out the brewed tea.. Its yummy.


Here is a link to starbucks.
http://www.starbucks.com/menu/drinks/tazo-tea/tazo-vanilla-rooibos-brewed-tea?foodZone=9999
You might be surprised by What's in your drink.

Face lift

Next year in mind..

I have decided that the best time to lose weight is between January and May.

And lucky for us. January is just a few weeks away! There is just something so exciting about a new year.. and a new you!

So.. lets get thinking..

What are our goals for this upcoming year?

And I'm not talking resolutions..

I'm talking obtainable goals.

Like.. lose 5 pounds a month. Or walk 30 minutes a day. Eat more fruit.

Ones we can look back and say.. I did it!

ok... so here is something fun. On new years eve. Take a few photos of yourself. then save them.. and new years next year.. check em out. It will be so awesome! Trust me! I will be posting my new years photos soon. This year and last. You can do soooo much in just one year. What will you do?

Holiday Eating tips

People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas. ~Author Unknown

Christmas is right around the corner,and so are, the holiday feasts. Yah know, the kind that last all day. Sometimes an entire week. And the goodies just keep coming.

Here is a link to some tips on how to stay thin during the holidays..

http://www.essortment.com/lifestyle/dietinghowtog_sgvn.htm

Tip of the day

If you Love french toast as much as I do..

use these tips to lower calories


1. Use 35 calorie wheat bread.

2. Use low fat or fat free milk.

4. Use egg beaters or egg whites only

5. Use Cinnamon to add some flavor, leave out any additive sugar

6. Cook on non stick skillet, no need for butter or oil

7. top with margarine and light or sugar free syrup

Imagine.. only 35 calories for the bread means your bread only equals 175 calories.. plus the nice healthy eggs and milk.. what a tasty treat!

New hair cut!

the chubby wife

As much as I try to pretend like being married doesn't effect my health. It totally does!

Since getting married 6 months ago.. I had gained.. yes. 10 pounds. I was exercising.. and eating healthy. I just wasn't eating as little or as exact as I did before the big day.

One day I finally had to admit.. I was gaining... but the strange this was. I didn't feel bigger. In fact my clothes were the same. So perhaps it was water weight. But anyways.. I have lost 8 of those pounds in the past 2 weeks. And am happily back to eating less than 1200 calories. And I am about to go running.

I don't feel badly about the last 6 months. I have totally enjoyed not being so intense about fitness. I recommend cutting yourself some honey moon slack and enjoying your life a bit. But as my husband makes himself tasty snack and eats another helping of pasta. I take a sip of his home made milk shake, I leave a little pasta on my plate, and drink some extra water.. all to stay in shape.

I know it was my diet. So I'm cutting back. And it feels good! I even got my hair cut.

Being a wife is a whole new department for weight loss. You have to start all over and try new methods. And I'm sure being a mother is even more difficult.

But I am seeing that scale go back down. And I'm feeling hopeful. And I'm happy.

tip of the day

3500 calories = 1 pound of fat

you need to burn 500 calories a day or eat 500 calories less to burn 1 pound a week.

do both and lose 2 pounds a week.

weightloss made simple.

so count those calories and get a move on.

I'm not there yet.

I'm not sure how to get to the next place. Without letting go of this place. This is the place of secure. I've accomplished so much. Yet, I'm not there yet.

Its like getting to your senior year and giving up and not graduating. You can see the end.. but you just give up.

Where to find the inspiration? To go above an beyond.. to do even more. What is the next step? How to we get even better. How do we change even more. How?

let us

Each day we are faced with the same thing. Ourselves. And without realizing it we start each day with a choice. The choice to do something different. To challenge ourselves in ways we never have. To show ourselves what we are made of. To become what no one thought we would ever be. To be stronger than we ever thought possible. To go above an beyond. To be different.

Being comfortable is the worst place to be. We don't want to move. We like it.

Lets get uncomfortable. Lets shake things up. Lets change.